Day 13- The day I turned 20

Honestly, this ain't a 30 days writing challenge anymore, but I was busy with college and stuff I organize so this blog kinda left behind. Yeah, whatever.

Yesterday I turned 20. It was pretty normal, in the beginning, I didn't wake up feeling special like I used to feel years ago. It was normal. Then, my friends did a surprise. They came with a poster of wishes, balloons and cake. It was too sweet, they even brought my 'present' (even it's a fake one), it was hilarious. I only have the pictures after the surprise, the rests are in Riri's camera.






Thank you God for everything. I couldn't ask for more.

Day 12- On wanting what you want

I guess I’m not really punctual on this writing challenge. The reason why I’ve been away and not posting is that I’ve been busy and I’ve been sick. Cliche, I know.

Anyway, over this holiday, my cousin always said to me that I don’t have my own purpose in life, yet. And I’ve tried to fight him by saying, I do have a purpose, but I don’t mention him what. And it got me thinking, do I really have a purpose in life? And I’ve been making questions and answers to myself.

“Do I have a purpose in life?”
“Yes, I do have”
“Then what is it?”
“I wanna be happy. I want me and everybody near me to be happy”
“Do you know how to make you happy?”
“By getting what I want”
“Well, do you know what you want?”

Then, I stopped there. I think this is what my cousin trying to ask me, “Do I know what I want?” A wise man once said, happiness is wanting what you want. In order to get my happiness I’ve got to want something, and it’s not just ‘things’ but more than that. Maybe I can begin with what I wanna do after college. Well, taking management as your field study make you faced with a lot of options, I mean in job that you’re gonna do. If you’re taking social studies you are faced with more options that you can choose. We’re not like those medical students who 95% will be doctors/ dentist after they finished their studies. Taking management doesn’t make you a manager after you finish your study. As I said, we are faced with more options.

So what I want? the two only things I will do as soon as I finish college is to apply for a scholarship and a job. What kinda job? I’m not quite sure yet, I’m gonna try to apply n some departments and companies but my priority is scholarship. I don’t have a clear picture on what job I’m going to do but I know what course I’m gonna take for my master degree; either finance or international economics.

See? It’s very blur, I need to focus in what I want, really. Maybe I can work this out before I turn 20. Amen.

Day 11- My idea of perfect afternoon

A glass of hot 'instant' cappuccino, slices of brownies, and a good book. I had my perfect afternoon today.

Day 10- how the holidays have been

I've been doodling and learning how to paint. Well, not really, I kinda learn how to color my doodles with oil paint. And it's been heaps of fun. The other thing is, I've been doodling on a t-shirt. That one is Endah's, she wants something that support 'go green' so I doodle something like that. It's pretty hard to find someone who sells a cheap white t-shirt.

Day 9- The Invasion of Colonel Sanders

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Who in the world doesn’t know who Colonel Sanders is? Yes, a grandfather whose face is framed in front of a fried chicken outlet. Erm, the one that from a state called Kentucky. You know him right?

Well, his troops have been invading Palembang with the opening of his 2 new outlets in very strategic place. Before the opening of these 2 outlets, Palembang already have, as I know, 4 outlets. The difference between these 4 outlets and the new 2 is in the building itself. The new buildings were built alone, the other 4 were join-built with other shops and food outlets. It just seems exclusive. And as we probably already know, when it comes to ‘something new’ and ‘something American’, the place is usually very crowded. Everybody seems wants to eat there. I don’t really know what the reason is, is the taste of the same fried chicken differs when the place is new? Perhaps. Typical Indonesian habit.

It’s the prestige, I get it. But c’mon? We should free our minds from being consumptive on foreign products. We’re being used after all.

Day 8- Something I learn today

There's no reason for us to be down. Go outside and take a look around. What do you see? Reasons to be happy. Cause out there, there are people who are less fortunate than you. So why we pull muscles when we can create dimples? Smile! it's free :)

- Fida Muthia

Day 7- Something that's been playing Part 2

I can't believe it's already a week. Looking at my writing for the past 6 days, I didn't write enough. Oh well, pardon me. Here's another songs I've been listening to lately.

Noah and the Whale- 2 atoms in a molecule, one of my favorite songs from their first album, Peaceful the World lays me down.



Angus & Julia Stone- Hold on. I, somehow, love this video clip.



Have a good weekends people and Good night!

Day 6- Food

I'm a fan of food, I mean who doesn't? I eat all the time, stuff calories, life is too short to worry about fat (yea right). Well, since I eat a lot, my weight is over the ideal weight of my height. But who cares since I'm healthy and happy? eating is good. My theory is, as long as you're healthy you can eat whatever you want. Anyway, my stomach always gets hungry when it's 10 pm above and since, my fridge is always empty at night all I can do is to feed my hungry stomach by seeing these pictures. Poor me.



If you're a tumblr user, you know where you get this picture right? yes, ffoodd.tumblr.com. Check it out people. I actually, don't have anything to write :|

Day 5- Roselin

Remember Roselin? No? Yes? Never mind. She's back.

I’m dangling, but you don’t know.
I sacrifice so much and you don’t know.
I’m on sale, you give me a glance.
Believing we are the two molecules that
Are waiting to collide.
Well, my belief is fading.
We are the two of a kind, they said.
Like a magnet,
When north meets north,
They’re opposing each other.
And I don’t believe that.
You’re slow, just take your time.
I’m no good in waiting but I do still wait.
I guess, I’m a stuborn.
Eventhough it’s fading, I still believe
we are the molecules that are waiting to collide.
And right now, we just lost our ways.

Day 4- Berbaikan dengan Tuhan

Saya pernah ditanya: Apakah sholat itu ibadah atau rutinitas, sebatas kebiasaan? Saya otomatis jawab kalau sholat itu ibadah. Waktu itu argumen saya kurang kuat dan saya sempat percaya kalau sholat yang saya lakukan hanya sebatas rutinitas. Tapi sekarang saya tahu, kalau sholat itu ibadah. Ada sebuah komunikasi yang terjadi antara manusia dengan Tuhannya dan itu terjadi waktu kita sholat/ ibadah. Saya memang tidak terlalu khusyuk waktu sholat, tapi kita merasa hubungan itu, ya kan?
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Rutinitas spiritualitas saya kacau. Saya bukan orang yang taat tapi untuk yang 5 waktu itu, saya berusaha untuk tidak bolong. Beberapa bulan terakhir, saya selalu tidur malam (diatas jam 12) akibatnya, subuh sering telat atau waktu sholat, saya merem-melek antara tidur- terjaga. Sholat di waktu lain pun juga seperti, hanya sebatas gerakan. Untuk duduk sebentar selesai sholat pun saya terlalu sombong, alasannya sih sibuk, banyak kerjaan. Saya sudah menjauh.

Belakangan ini saya merasa Tuhan tidak ada disana; kosong. Ah, mungking hanya perasaan, entah lah. Kiai/ ustadz diluar sana sering bilang, ibaratkan Tuhan sebagai pacar, kalau kita terlalu sering menjauh pasti dia sakit hati. Dalam hal ini, saya terlalu sering menyakiti Tuhan; datang hanya pada waktu saya menginginkan sesuatu atau sedang susah, untuk bersyukur pun terlalu sibuk. Dosa sudah menggunung pun tetap sombong.

Tapi disini yang membedakan Tuhan dan manusia, entah sudah berapa sering saya sakiti, waktu saya kembali, dia masih ada disana. Sang Pemaaf dan Maha Penyayang. Sekarang saya lagi memperbaiki hubungan dengan Tuhan, saya merasa segan. Rasanya seperti habis berbaikan setelah bertengkar dengan seorang teman, sedikit canggung.


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Tuhan itu ada disana, dia tidak pernah pergi hanya kita, manusia, yang terlalu sering menjauh. Mau sejauh apapun kita pergi, suatu saat kita pasti kembali.

Day 3- Laskar Fida

I've posted this picture somewhere in my tumblr, I think blogger needs this picture too (zZz -,-)

Laskar Fida is a name of our group given by Randi (the one who's standing) in the beginning of our college year (berasa udah lama kuliah). Well, seven of us (the one in that picture above minus Bima) are the only Management students in our batch year who took International Class program. We stick together a lot especially in the first two semester when our schedules are different to those who are in regular class. Long story short, those boys made a joke that I'm actually a hoodlum and use scarf as a cover of what I really am and they created a story of how I rule Palembang. Randy once drew a picture of me (which the picture I never saw cause they threw it away) with muscles and tattoos all over my body. And since then, they name ourselves 'Laskar Fida' and they call me 'Ayuk', cause they chose me to be the 'head of the group' and that's the kinda respect I get (they said that). We've been through a lot; from a messed up schedule, group study, to failing a unit, and along the way we've lost a member too, Bima, who's accepted in STAN. These people and the rest of IC 2008 really put colors to my first years in college. College world's much better with them (cikiciw).

The one that's standing is Randi Sanjaya, the most laid back and ignorant guy when it comes to college stuff that I've ever met. And yet, he always managed to get GPA above 3. Me and Fidel think there's a fortune goddess clutching to him. He draws and sleep in classes, and not to forget his love for slow songs like, Quando Quando or Georgia by Michael Buble.

Next, the one who sits at the back on the left is Dimas Rahmatika. We call him 'Burn' since his skin has burn kinda thing color, haha. He plays Yoyo real good, I tell you. He belongs to this yoyo community and very quite among all of us. Now, he owns and manages a 'Mie ayam' business.

Next to Dimas is Abror Mubarak, we prefer calling him Ayok. What comes out his mouth is trash, he can mock you real bad and Randi is his partner. The most sensitive guy and has (or maybe used to have) this weird long-distance relationship. And oh, he takes care his sick grandmother a lot. He missed classes a lot just to take care his grandma (no kidding). He told me a story about how his grandparents met at war, his grandfather was an army and his grandmother was a nurse, well, you can figure out how they end right?

The one who sits in front is M. Ramadhi Utama, Madi for short. A skater and we call him a cutting edge boy (wii wii), a very calm young man and into British musics. I really adore him and his girlfriend, really (GR deh), they suit each other. what I don't like from him is the fact that he's the only smoker among us.

That's all. Well, that girl with long hair is Fidel. I've already wrote about her here.

Well, I manage to write something long, haha. Good night, earthlings!

Day 2- Something that's been playing

I'm not prepare for writing a long post but this is something I wanna share, Noah and The Whale newest single L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N from their upcoming album The Last Day on Earth. Enjoy.



And hopefully I can write something tomorrow (like there's someone out there that reads this blog -,-)

Day 1- And we wish for something

Let's experience new things,
Go to new places,
Meet new people,
,
Be a brand new person.


I wish.

I've posted this in 2010 in my other blog but I guess I haven't change much. Those things aren't achieved and I'm wishing for something else. But isn't this what always happen?

30 hari menulis

Awalnya pengen ikut 30 days blog challenge biar blog ini agak ramean (hah?), itu tuh yang ada topik buat ditulis selama 30 hari, misalnya: Day 1- write fifteen facts about you, Day 2-bla, Day 30-blabla, tapi ngerasa nggak bebas masalahnya apa yang bakal kita tulis udah ditentuin aja gitu. Eh tiba-tiba inget kalo salah satu blogger favorit saya pernah ikutan blog challenge '30 hari menulis' beberapa bulan yang lalu. Waktu itu pengen ikut juga tapi takut bakal nggak selesai jadi niatnya dibatalin.

Nah, '30 hari menulis' ini sebenarnya sama sih kayak 30 days blog challenge, bedanya, di '30 hari menulis' kita bebas mau nge-post apa aja, mulai dari foto, cerita pendek, puisi, postingan galau (ini bakal paling sering di post kayaknya) pokoknya apa aja selama 30 hari. Karena libur, saya mau coba challenge ini ya paling nggak, saya bisa nulis setiap hari. Mungkin kalo nggak sempat di post langsung bisa di save dulu di notes hp atau di binder (mulai cari alasan). Anyway, wish me luck!